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March 2010
 
My friends and dear soul mates on this journey,
 
Last I wrote I told you I was having surgery, I am recovering slowly but surely and appreciate your vision of my complete recovery. free of pain.
 
As you may know there is much talk about Mars being retrograde (for many months) but will go direct March 10.  What does this mean?  That many things have been in a holding pattern but action will start to occur after March 10th (aren't you relieved?)  But at this time continue to envision and plant the seeds so things may sprout in March, April etc!
 
Given this I'd love to offer you an incentive for a March reading, how about $25 off a reading of 1/2 hour or more.  You just need to book it before March 10th, 2010.  
 
Go to www.mylifedreams.net (main page) and in payments choose Misc and put in the amount ($25 less the regular rate, i.e. only $25 for a 1/2 hour reading, $50 for 45 min. reading, $75 for a one hour reading! if you book by March 20, 2010).  In the notes section, please let me know if you'd like an evening, daytime or weekend appointment.
 
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I'd love to tell you a miraculous story. 
 
Last Friday night I went out with my girlfriend and just had a "feeling"  that I would meet a man this night (rarely happens, this message!).  After dinner this had not yet happened so I suggested we go for a drink (soda for me).  Anyhow, we could have walked across the plaza at the Annapolis Town Center but I suggested we get my friend's car in Valet parking and ride to the other side.
 
As it's cold we huddled in the Valet tent and Low and behold we met another couple inside.  The woman told us she and the man were just friends and announced he was single.  I don't know what came over me, but I boldly took out my card and handed it to him.  He was, after all, tall, handsome and funny.  She began speaking of a yoga retreat she had just returned from, so I mentioned the work that I did and particularly my monthly meditation group in which I also give messages.  I invited her to attend.
 
The man piped up and asked if men were welcome.  I said, "Sure!".  He left the tent saying, "Maybe I (he) need to be more open-minded!"  He was clearly interested.
 
I woke the next morning to a wonderful email saying he enjoyed meeting me and would like to get together, even later that day would be fine.  I emailed him back inviting him to the full moon event that night, or perhaps Sunday. He called immediately and apologized that he was booked for Saturday night for a lacrosse dinner, but would love to get together Sunday, perhaps before dinner.
 
I googled his name after we spoke, something I never do, and found he was a doctor, had a pilot's license and currently worked for Medicare. Promising!  His name, Joe Kelly.  I spent the day, off and on envisioning a future of having fun, jumping on a plane (to Florida perhaps to escape the 3 feet of snow here!),  and developing a loving relationship.  Even my daughter, a natural intuitive herself, was quick to imagine him as her future step father.  Of course, I told her, let's take this one step at a time, that I didn't even know him yet.  I had no idea the turn of events to come.
 
Sunday morning I re-googled him and saw that a plane crashed in Edgewater, MD Saturday at 4:30, a plane owned by Joe Kelly.  Five hours after we spoke.  I thought, oh no, someone crashed his plane.  A few minutes later, the name Joseph Luther Kelly was released as the person who was the pilot and who had died.  I thought, Oh no, his son died!  I called my friend who met him with me and she said, "Could it be him?" 
 
My body went cold.  I felt completely in shock.  I spent the next two hours desperately looking for the age of the Joe Kelly who died.  Late in the afternoon I finally found a story that read, Joseph Luther Kelly, age 53, of Annapolis died in the crash, the only person on board.
 
I went into shock.  I felt devastated.  This depth of emotion didn't match the physical experience for someone I only met for 10 minutes and talked with for a mere 5 minutes.  I looked into this and felt that somehow, someway we had spent a life path together where we bonded and then he died, which would have been much more painful and I heard the words, "I could not do that to you."  I cried, I grieved, I was saddened, I was in shock.  Even my daughter was devastated.  So even though, on some other dimension we somehow shared a bond, I still felt the pain of the loss in this time and space.  I prayed to understand this all.
 
I asked Joe what I could do for him, why had we met?  He asked I reach out to "the girls".  I didn't think this was kids, because he didn't say "my girls".  I thought perhaps sisters, and as I found his obit, surely enough he has 2 sisters.
 
I felt compelled to attend his funeral, to meet the family I perhaps would have known and begin to know more about this man who so touched my life in this brief encounter.  I discovered his memorial would be held out of town, and travel is not something I thought I could do in my recovery.
 
So I was faced with a dilemma.  Do I "out" myself to total strangers and tell them this mystical tale and my ability to hear from those who have passed over?  I heard clearly that I could not let my ego stand in the way (ego in this case, the little me fearing being judged, crazy, whatever), stand in the way of a higher calling to be who I REALLY am without fear of ridicule, and be willing to serve.  So I posted a note his in his guest sign-in at the on-line funeral home website.  It reads,
 
"To Joe's sisters especially, I am so sorry to hear of your loss of a dear brother. The loss of my brother a few years ago was deeply painful so I can somewhat understand how you must be feeling. Having a loving brother is a great gift.

In a strange twist of fate I met Joe this past Friday night for the first time. He emailed and called me Saturday to set up a time to get together on Saturday or Sunday, "on the fly" as he wrote to me. We planned for Sunday, which of course did not happen. I truly wish I could have gotten to know him.

Those few moments with him seem divinely orchestrated, our meeting quite coincidental, or synchronistic depending on how you look at it. He must have been special because although I don't know him like most of you, I felt a deep pain and loss, too. Perhaps the pain of what could have been. I felt shocked by the news of his death and wondered why I had met him and spoken with him in the last hours of his life. He was clearly a kind, funny and loving man.

I would love to know if there is any kind of gathering in Maryland so I can know more about him and honor his life and make some sense of why we met only to miss one another.

I prayed Sunday night and asked if there was something I could do for Joe and I heard the words, talk to "the girls". I didn't know if he had kids or sisters, but since he said "the" girls and not "my" girls, I thought sisters, or nieces. I do believe the spirit lives on and Joe can send message of his love and concern from heaven. (This is not the first time I've had this extraordinary experience of connecting with loved ones who have passed and I hope it brings some comfort to you).

I remain humbled by this experience of connecting with dear Joe, albeit briefly, who gave me the gift of remembering that love and life is fleeting on earth, but forever in spirit, and every moment to be cherished.

My thoughts and prayers are with you during this very difficult time.
 
Barbara Webber, Annapolis, MD, March 2, 2010"
 
On Friday the phone rang and my prayer was answered.  A friend of Joe's was on the line saying she was touched by my writing and felt compelled to call me.  She had dated Joe for many years, off and on, and knew him well, the good, the imperfect, etc.  We made a great connection and I felt my prayers were answered, that our other lifetime was wonderful, this lifetime was probably not met to create a relationship.  But that our meeting was still divine, that perhaps he needed to "see" me to remember a life of love and remind me of the possibility of love.
 
If you've ever read Richard Bach's book, "One", it explains much of this about multiple incarnations/experiences.  That there is only one "me" and "him" and we continue to meet another, 'trying to get it right" and remember the love and who we really are.  I also expand this to be that Joe's friend and I are "one" that we both grieve, suffer loss and experience the loss of our loved one, for her in this time period, for me in another.  Bach says, "True love stories never end."
 
Joe's friend wrote to me just yesterday that although she has many friends who are helping her thought this difficult time, she has received the most peace through her connection with me.  And I am so grateful for that.  I understand that is part of my job.
 
I realize when you surrender to spirit, keep the ego at bay (that voice that says, don't do it you'll get hurt!), you are divinely gifted.
 
I feel blessed by this extraordinary experience and I am reminded of my gift to help those who are struggling with the loss of a loved one.  That I have the unique, and yes weird, ability to reach out to the "dead" and receive messages.  In this case, messages from Joe to his friend, to help feel a better sense of closure, make amends, apologize and share his evolution to a higher and more loving, peaceful state of consciousness. 
 
I had been reluctant to tell people I didn't know about my gift, but in my risk, I was able to be of service.  Such a blessing!
 
Of the many things you may take from this story, one that I hope you let seep into your consciousness, is that when you freely give your God-given gifts, you are blessed  many times over.  And you bless others.  I wish you the courage to be who you really are.
 
Barbara
 
 
 
December, 2009

 

When I was growing up, the holidays were full of anticipation – of presents and “presence.”  I imagined Santa’s visit, all the goodies under the tree, and most importantly being with my whole family.  Every year, my mother and I would decorate the tree together, oohing and aahing over the ornaments, each of which revealed memories from Christmas past.  We unwrapped old, worn-out and delicate ornaments handed down from my Nana, parents, aunts and uncles, friends and siblings.  We rediscovered ornaments marking first Christmases, favorite hobbies and beloved pets.  We found holiday art made with my 7 year old hands and those of my mom’s and sister’s as they kindly decorated children’s ornaments with me.

 

For me, my older brother Lee’s visit was the most exciting part of holidays.  He lived in the Midwest while my mother, sister and I lived on the East Coast, so we rarely saw him.  He was the love of the family, with an amazing sense of humor and the ability to make everyone feel wonderful.  He was my shining light and he said I was his angel.  He made every holiday gathering special because he brought himself to the occasion.  His presents didn’t always make it (I once got a record album with the jacket but no record), but his presence always shined.

 

Now, my 11 year old daughter and I pull out all the old ornaments and revisit our Christmases together.  I tell her stories about the cracked and worn out ornaments, delicately unwrapping the little elves (my favorites) that have lost hats, mittens and even body parts over the years!  We reminisce about loved ones who are no longer with us, including my beloved brother and delightful mom who I dearly, dearly miss.  The losses have added up, as have the memories and thankfully, the blessings. 

 

So for me, the holidays bring a mixture of laughter and tears, much like life all year long.  I look back and am most grateful for the times I had with loved ones.  I don’t remember all the presents (except my first bicycle and first dog!), but I do remember the presence of people I love.  The times we had together.

 

I wish you a holiday filled with loving presence.  Drink in each moment! I wish you a New Year creating wonderful dreams.  I wish you laughter and song, family and friendship, spiritual growth, peace, joy and divine partnerships. 

 

I love helping you see and create a wonderful future, being a partner with you on your divine, spiritual journey.  Your Angels stand with you, as do I, supporting you as you dream the dreams of your life.  What would you love to create next year? 

 

Please give yourself the present of presence, enjoy this blessed holiday season and have a wonderful and joyous New Year!

 

Blessings and gratitude,

 

Barbara

 

 

August 1, 2009

 

I have been enjoying a childlike celebration of summer --- pool dates, playing cards, planting flowers, parties, visiting friends and taking a little time "off" from my usual routine.  (Therefore, not keeping up on my website message page or doing reading at my regular metaphysical stores - sorry!). 

 

One of the things I have been focusing on is doing things that I have been putting off, or finding excuses not to do.  I knew this was dragging down my energy.  I highly recommend it because it SO clears the energy and frees you up to use your energy in another arena.  I started cleaning out my closet and donating my extra stuff, planting flowers in one of my small yards, and gave my daughter her "tween" room by painting and buying new beds linens and curtains.  I realized that one of my internal measurements for "success" or "prosperity" was having fresh flowers in my yard each summer and having my daughter's room be coordinated, colorful and neat.  What might be on your list?  What is the thing you would SEE in your life or FEEL in your life if you were living in prosperity or meeting one of your basic tenants of success (however you define it). 

 

Many of my clients are focusing on one of two issues right now:  PROSPERITY or LIFE PURPOSE.  And that makes sense --- that is what is going on throughout the universe.  It's a lesson we are ALL going through.  It's a good time to do a review of your life, what would prosperity look and feel like (rather than that ever- changing line that we keep chasing).  What are your needs versus wants?  And maybe better yet, how can you FEEL prosperous, feel financially secure now?  What can you do to maintain that energy to allow prosperity to flow into your life?

 

PROSPERITY:  Now, if you are wanting to manifest more prosperity in the terms of "money", use the word.  So many spiritual people seem to be afraid to want money or even speak it aloud.  Hey, it's what we use to buy things, it's okay.  Clear any energy around the money word (i.e. money is the root of all evil, you have to work HARD to make money, money doesn't grow on trees, etc.)   Thank the Universe/God for bringing you X amount of money each month, day, week, or X number of clients, whatever works for you.  Write it down and see your affirmation each day and repeat it.  When I decided to take about a month off my clients stopped calling me (boy did what I asked for work).  But then as I ended my "off" time, I wondered what would happen as I re-entered the workforce, was everyone in fear mode, afraid to spend money on spiritual support?  When I was ready, I simply looked at my affirmation (thank you God for sending me a client every day) and immediately my clients started calling and emailing me again - it works!

 

LIFE PURPOSE:   Helping people find their soul's purpose is something I love to do.  You can beging to notice what you enjoy doing - do you love working in partnership, alone, in large groups; outside, inside, traveling; do you prefer speaking, writing, researching, healing, etc.   Secondly, what issue in the world are you most concerned about - environment, animals, kids, justice?  I think it is essential to do this kind of discovery work with ongoing support and partnership.  So, if you are struggling with that life purpose issue, let's set up an appointment and create an energy and a plan to create a life you really love, one that is an expression of your Soul's Desire.  I sometimes find I get messages about someone's life purpose that is nowhere on their radar screen, i.e. a medical tech who really wanted to work in beauty and hair styling (and never told anyone!), a  designer who would make a great physical therapist, an educator whose divine calling is in the ministry.  I cannot tell you how excited I am to align people with their True Self and their True Soul Desire - it's SO exciting.

 

Have a wonderful summer, doing things you love, spending time with people you love, and continuing your amazing human life's journey.  I look forward to connecting with you soon and supporting you in your wonderful life.

 

Barbara

 

 

May 10, 2009

 

Another Mother's Day - filled with a variety of emotions, gratitude, expectations, loss, sadness, joy, family, no family.  It's a holiday steeped in emotions for many women.  Twenty two years ago my mother passed away, the day before my 26th birthday.  It was a truly sad day for me and for some time I was "lost".  I couldn't imagine how the world could go on without my mother in it.  How dare people wake up and mow their lawns like nothing had happened.  How dare they celebrate.  Iwas angry.  And that's okay. 

 

My big question was who was I without a mother present?  Like most daughters and mothers, we had our ups and downs.  She was not a perfect mother, but most likely a perfect mother for me in what I was here to learn and to teach.  The most painful things I experienced with her turned out to be the very gifts that would enable me to be a more present mother, and I think more enlightened daughter to my daughter.  So each and every ouchy was worth it.

 

There is rarely a reading I do that does not include a mother issue.  Face it, most of us have them (issues that, is). Whether it's about our mother or our mothering.  So once you open your heart today to experience whatever you are feeling, it's a good opportunity to ask yourself, "What are my expectations around Mother's Day?"  If you felt any "let downs'" or "frustrations" today (or other days around motherhood) you probably had some expectations.  Perhaps your child did not awake quietly and honor your need to sleep.  He/she did not show up with a wonderful cooked or prepared breakfast, or maybe just didn't put your needs first.  My daughter bought me beautiful flowers, and picked up lunch (for herself).  So, did I focus on the git or the self centered food shopping.  My choice.  Gee, how many children even KNOW how to think of you versus themselves or others?  (She's actually a very sensitive and thoughtful girl, but she is 11!)

 

So the best question really is, "What can I do for myself for Mother's Day?"  Honor your motherhood, forgive all the believed "mistakes", and get in touch with your expectations for yourself and others.  Honor any loss you may have in terms of your motherhood experience.  And then ask, "What is my commitment to myself about my relationship to myself as a mother (or not being a mother), to my mother (or not having a mother)?  Be willing to feel and again, ask yourself, "What do I wish to be experiencing and ask yourself what is just ONE thing I can do today to being to experience that.  Perhaps it's asking what you want.  Perhaps it's graciously accepting what you get.  Perhaps it is putting your needs first in a loving way.  (I know, challenging!)

 

Bless yourself today.  Whether we give birth to a child, an idea, or a project, we are mothering.  We, women, are meant to create, whether it's procreation or co-creation...that's part of who we are.

 

So I honor you today, with all your imperfections and perfections, knowing your mothering experiences are perfect in your journey of life.

 

Blessings,

 

Barbara

 
 
May 6, 2009

 

I've been so busy going to various metaphysical bookstores and shops and meeting so many of you wonderful souls, for which I am so grateful.  This month will prove to be another hectic one with several workshops, speaking engagements and readings, see my calendar

 

I an now wrapping up my Fearless Living Teleclass and getting ready to teach a psychic development class.   As always, I am seeing my students grow in leaps and bounds.  They have become so aware of what has been holding them back, and walking through the fear to the other side and starting to make choices that better reflect who they really are and what they really want.  I'm not talking about overcoming the fear of jumping out of airplanes or speaking in front of a crowd, but the "I'm not good enough" fears that keep us from living our dreams.  The fears that make us complain, blame, judge, beat up ourselves, hold higher than high silent expectations of others and ourselves.  The fear that says I will work like crazy to the detriment of my health, my family, my soul so that no one thinks me incompetent, lazy or stupid.  The fear that says I better point out everyone else's  flaws so no one sees mine.  We all have these fears.  Which one is quietly driving you and making your choices?  Fear of being insignificant, a loser, selfish?  What about the fear that speaks through our emotions and says if I feel scared, don't do it.  If I might embarrass myself, don't do it.  It says, "You can't do that.  Who do you think you are?"  Fear is trying to protect you, but it's keeping you from who you REALLY are.

 

Who you truly are is a magnificent being with special gifts and talents and a great opportunity to share them.  The opportunity is your life.  This one.  So starting today, ask yourself, "If I believed in myself, if I said, 'No thank you fear' what would I do differently?   How would I be differently?"  And, no that doesn't mean telling your boss or spouse, "I quit".  It might mean making a plan that includes lining up for a better job or getting clear about the expectations you hold about your job or your partnership.  It's a process, but an excellent one with fantastic results.

 

So, if you're interested in joining the next class (TBA) - by phone from the COMFORT of your own home, let me know.  Just click Fearless Living Teleclass and drop me a note on this page it connects you to.  If you're interested in a psychic development teleclass, please let me know, I am starting a list now.

 

 I look forward to seeing how you face your voice of fear and come out an empowered, happier, healthier you.  And hopefully I will soon see your wonderful soul as well!

 

April 14, 2009

 

This past weekend I went to see my niece’s Salsa Club perform at the University of Virginia and was amazed at the opportunities young people have at college nowadays (am I sounding old?).  We never had a salsa club!  Can you imagine have boys to dance with at college?  How fabulous.  It made me look back at my college days, the young hope and vision for the future I had at that time.  I hardly knew who I was (or who I would actually become) but I was ready to tackle my future head on!

 

My college life didn't go as planned (as per my April 13 message).  Just a few weeks after I left for college my mother attempted suicide and I returned home to keep an eye on her, work and go to community college.  After a few years I returned to school full time with a tremendous appreciation for living away from home and enjoying college life.  Although I started as a business major, I changed to communications, on a whim choose a degree in Speech Pathology and then "accidentally" ended up working in public relations - a field in which I thrived.  It wasn't my planning, it was me just taking one step in front of another and I believe I ended up exactly where I "should" be according to my gifts and talents.   (See About Me.) 

 

Eventually through my life experiences, I further developed my spiritual awareness, my intuitive gifts and was able to use those gifts in service to others AND in a way to support my overall health and wellness.  It's been a journey to go from the business world, representing world leaders, authors and experts, to a spiritual person doing intuitive work and helping one person at a time versus many.  Both "jobs" are incredibly rewarding and life changing.  I admit, however, it was difficult to choose the non-conventional job, to become public about my ability to do psychic and medium work.  And doesn't the universe challenge us when we're afraid to be our true self?

 

Earlier this year I knew it was time to take my gifts to another level, a little more public, a little bigger and be more comfortable in my role as a spiritual teacher.  I was a bit of a reluctant psychic fearing I might be an outcast, perhaps being rejected by my family.  I went to a weekend workshop on Fearless Living to tackle this fear and it held some amazing gifts for me.   I revealed my fear of being more public about my psychic gifts, and all weekend the workshop leader, Rhonda Britten, would mention my psychic abilities ... in a funny or teasing way (I kept predicting what was happening next through my questions and the group had great fun with that!). 

 

So, this past weekend I logged on to one of my face book sites where our workshop members keep in touch and sent a quick hello to my classmates.  Since it was Easter weekend, I added a note that I hoped they had some chocolate!   I purposely didn't say "Happy Easter" knowing not everyone celebrated this holiday.  So I figured chocolate was a neutral topic.  Boy was I wrong!

 

To my amazement I received a very upset email from one of the students angry with me for mentioning chocolate because she has health issues and weight issues.  I realize this is her issue, but I said I was sorry to offend and explained I too had health issues (in fact diabetes) but I was just trying to send a shout out.  She fired back that I need to say I was irresponsible and wasn't I a psychic, should I have known better?   I guess psychics are supposed to know how everyone will react and make sure not to say anything that will hurt someone else...wow, talk about high expectations!  (People often think I am "reading" everyone, but I don't do that.  I read when I'm asked or when a feeling just comes over me, for my health/safety.)

 

Her next email she went further to say she had problems that I had promoted myself as a psychic in the workshop.   Isn't that divinely perfect?  Here I was having trouble embracing my psychic self in a crowd of strangers and wanting to hide out.  My goal was to become more comfortable promoting myself in the future.  She challenged my very fear telling me not to do just what my fear voice was telling me, keep hidden!  What a gift!

 

Do you ever hear people voicing your very fears?  Challenging your comfort zone?

 

Standing in our own power, being who we really are, is a common challenge we all have in this journey called life.  And when we are afraid to stand up, speak up, be "bigger", someone is sure to tell us to stay small, hide out, fit in or change who we are to make them feel better.  (In fact although I was sorry I upset here I also said I was not responsible for her feelings).  Remember, if someone is upset, it's him/her who has the problem.  Once you become upset (perhaps by what they say/do, the problem is yours).    Whoever is upset owns the problem.  But our upsets are great communicators with us about our fears, our expectations, our complaints, our beliefs and our negative self talk.

 

There's a teleclass I teach called Fearless Living that I highly recommend if you want to tackle your fears and step into your true self, live your dreams.  You can see lots of testimonials on my sites from my students.  I invite you to join us to be more of who you are, recognize where fear may be stopping you, and begin living the life you dream about. 

 

Can you go back to that time of youthful innocence when you dreamed of a future, believed you could have it, and fearlessly took one step at a time to get there - enjoying the journey along the way (sometimes having no idea even where you are going!).  Now fast forward to today and imagine what future you'd like to create now.  Start noticing where "fear" shows up, it's the voice that says you're not good enough, smart enough, you're selfish, incompetent, you don't have enough time, money, energy, can't do it, etc.  Your true self says, give it a try, sure you can, why not?, YES!   You are creating your life in this very moment, why not do it consciously?

 

 
April 13, 2009
 
This morning I heard Carolyn Myss say, "Every single person in the world is thinking 'this is not the life I thought I would lead'."   Did you think you were the only one?  What life did you imagine you would be living?  Have you let go of that old fantasy yet?  Or would you like to claim some part of it and begin making "it" happen? 
 
What I know is being stuck in "if only.." doesn't move us forward."   Or, "why", "why me?"  None of that supports us in taking charge of our life and creating what we think we'd like to experience.  So, if your life didn't turn out the way you imagined, join the club!  Laugh! And start imagining something better, from right where you are now!  Feel the feeling, believe and take joyous action and see the universe rise up to support you in creating a wonderful life.
 
 
April 10, 2009
 

My 11 year old daughter joined her first ever softball team this week.   I was simply amazed when she spotted her two female coaches she didn't know, walked right up to them and introduced herself.  I overheard her telling them what a great runner she is, full of self confidence and pride.  This is a wonderful little girl who has never played the game, never batted a ball, never worn a glove, never run the bases, doesn't know what "stealing a base" is - it's all new to her.  And here she was, in complete self esteem, telling them what a great ball player she would be.

 

When they asked who wanted to play second base, she raised her hand and said, "I will."  When they asked who wanted to bat, she raised her hand and said, "I do."  When they asked who wants to be a catcher, she said, "I do."  When they asked who can pitch she said, "I can."  Never mind she had never done any of these things before, she was ready, willing, able and confident.

 

You know what?  She covered that second base, she hit the ball, she wore the catcher's uniform and she pitched balls.  She did it "all out", full force, she did it over and over again, no matter how difficult, how great she was or how much trouble she had.  Her confidence before, during and after was just the same.  Confident.

 

Can you remember the last time you raised your hand for something you had little or no experience doing and with completely self confidence said, "I will, I do, I can?!"  

 

This was an inspiration to me, as I hope it is to you.  I went back into my history to when I was a young girl and had all the confidence in the world, when I was willing to try anything believing I could do it even when I had no idea if I could at all. In fact, my idea was naturally that I could!   And it felt great.

 

In the end it didn't matter if I was a good batter, singer, artist, writer, whatever.  What mattered was that my faith in me, my belief in myself carried me through whatever activity I tackled.  Believing in My Self felt good.  Today, it feels good, when I can recapture that childhood innocence of total self-confidence in the face of the unknown. No fear, no doubt.

 

So today, if you are looking for your self confidence, even if you have to go "way back" in time, remember it and the good feeling it brought you.  Maybe you can bring it forward to today and tackle that something that has been daunting you.  Your natural self confidence might override fear's voice that you won't be good enough or can't do it.  Feel the feeling, recall it and "do it" with confidence.  No matter the outcome, it feels good to believe in yourself.  The little girl, or boy, in you will be proud of you.  And so will I.

 
 
April 6, 2009
 
Giving messages has been a blessing, but it was a bit scary when it "just started happening" in front a gathering of several people during a meditation of spiritual beings.  The energy was so strong I could barely sit still.  So I called in a circle of light and asked for divine messages, then took questions.  Afterwards my entire body ached as if the energy was three times the size of my small frame.

 

Of course I was used to sitting down for an individual reading for someone and giving messages, but standing in front of a crowd and bringing messages from "the Light" into the room was daunting.  Why me?  Then again, why not me?  (Either question is ego talking!)  Afterwards people felt so much love, peace and healing I thought, well I guess I'm willing to do this if it's helpful.  However, I could do without the physical pain (and asked for that change and got it!)  In the midst of bringing in this light and the messages, I cannot imagine being anywhere else because the energy of love and light is simply heaven.  I think now that is what the term means, heaven on earth.  If only we could harness this energy and bring it with us, especially in the face of challenges.  But, hey, we're human, so let's be humane with one another and understand we're all growing, learning and hitting a few bumps in the road.  It may be too much to ask to always be in "heaven" on earth - or is it?

 

So this past weekend I left the safety of my message circle in my home and led a gathering in a public venue, a Unity Church in Maryland (Upcoming Events), and opened it up to all who wanted to attend.  Although small and intimate, the group was powerful and the messages delightful.  We called in the Angels, the ancestors, and our loved ones.  Being able to connect people with loved ones who have passed over continues to be a highlight of my work, bringing so much comfort to those "left behind".   I am amazed over and over again when I am able to give details about a person or personality who has passed over to the loved one here.  It reminds us that our loved one is still with us, still alive in Spirit.  So comforting!

 

As expected, questions about the "economic crisis" were asked.  The Angel Michael said, “I don't know why you call it a crisis, we call it cause and effect.  A time of great learning, growth, transformation.  A time of balancing...."  There was a lot to say on this matter.  Of course, anyone who is facing a job loss or home loss doesn't feel it as just a lesson, it can be incredibly painful.  But, that is partly because of your thought that you will be worse off somehow - we imagine losing "everything".  That things will not turn out "all right".  That it will be too painful.  It may indeed be painful, but somehow, some way, it will turn out.  And you are more powerful than you know.  Focus on your strengths, talents, gifts and all the support you have been given in the past and go with the flow of your life.  If that means letting go, then let go.  Trust that you are being directed to something better.  Perhaps less stuff and more time, perhaps less debt and more love, perhaps less doing and more being, perhaps less money but more harmony and wellness.

 

This is the time to be fully supported by Spirit and by your like minded friends who will help you dwell in your blessings and gifts, help you find that courage and strength to move forward.  Imagine and hold that vision of a better tomorrow.  Yes, you may need to let go of some "things", and some "thoughts".  The time of overconsumption is over.  It is the time to live within our means and focus on what really matters most.  I keep you in my prayers on your sacred journey. 

 

I send light and love your way and invite you to join us if you are in Maryland, or call me if you're not so we can stick together and weather this "cause and effect".  To a better and better tomorrow and a fabulous today!  I hope you are creating your dreams.

 

Blessings,

 

 

Barbara

 
 
 
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